problem?

my problem is you and you and also you… =(

come and go

i've been meeting and gaining new friends for the past couple of months. people from all walks of life and sometimes, even some whom i thought i will never get the chance to be close to. i was also reunited with former schoolmates and friends since high school and college. made friends with former officemates and strangers from far far away.

this is the good part of being friendly and flexible kind of person. i know i can blend with anyone whatever his/her things is. this is my way to boost my self-esteem because i'm a shy girl, not really sociable type way back then. 

i used to be like trapped inside a box, and i'm like moving in the same place for a very long time. i don't get the chance to explore what's outside that box because some forces are trying to pull me back. but when, i finally got the chance to break out, i was so amused that i almost didn't get the chance to see and experience what's really out there.
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white balance

i changed my template here for the nth time. 

i like white. clean and simple.

if you noticed, i also changed my multiply template to a simple white and black theme, too. i don't like to put too much drama on my page so i opt for simple ones. 

it may also signifies what my life is now - simple. i get to do what i want. i get to go where i want to go. i get to be with people i want to hang with. pretty simple. it really starts within yourself, once you started knowing what you want and what makes you happy then everything will follow. everything will be as simple as you want it to be.

of course, there are times that some inevitable things happen but i'm trying to just shrug it off.

i was stab in the back

who will do that?

what's his/her motive?

why?

real friends are very hard to find. =( 

used to be

i remember those days when everything seems to be in the gray area, i have done things that are only acceptable and understood by a few (only those who are open-minded, liberated, or those have done the same thing). 

sometimes i feel that these things are haunting me. but never will i regret experiencing these things because it have made me what i am now. 

i became aware of my environment and the people that i going to be with. people might be even notice that my outlook in life also changed. because i see the world in a different perspective now. i am conscious about who to give my trust, because i was let down countless times in the past and just recently…>.<

same old you

i'm sorry but you are still the same old person. after a few meetings that we had since our breakup, i still see the same old you. the very same reason why i left you. same old stories, same old crap. four months is still a short time and you can't say that you've change. because i still see the same old you.

dreams and reality

Last May 3 of this year was the anniversary of my OJT days at my previous company. I had a big head start against some of my other peers, since I was already hired by the same company few days before I marched to take my diploma in B.S in Information Management.  I started my internship on just photocopying and binding training materials for the marketing department. Paper cuts and jammed printers were my enemies during these times.  I did client calls to confirm attendees from partners for their training schedules. During those times, I’m quite satisfied on what I do. Maybe this is just right for me; I didn’t mind doing this at all. For all I know, every interns do this kind of stuffs, too.

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fighting all the demons

a friend of mine mentioned to me that maybe i should update my blog. hehehe. =P so here it is. actually, i've been busy lately that is why i can't find time to write about how my life was going for the past two weeks. and i was also surprised when i read that the last update i had is just a one-liner post.

so what i've been up lately?

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right now…

…i do what makes me happy.

dark room

why am i quiet these past few days or weeks (i guess)?!

why?

because i don't want to talk. [period]

there are things i want to say but i don't want to share for the time being. there are feelings i don't want to hurdle on the things i want to focus on. 

my friends and especially the closest ones knew me as someone who's always blabbing about everything that's going on with my life. but now, some would notice that i'm usually in a quiet mood.  yes, that's true.  but i don't  have any big problem whatsoever. i'm fine.

maybe i am a bit neurotic lately, but it doesn't mean that i have a problem or something. sometimes, you just need to shut up for a while and then get back -refreshed, renewed, recharged! 

thanks for those who noticed and even those who silently care.

i'm still completing the bits and pieces of my puzzle. =)