moving forward

i created another blog here in i.ph, this will be the counterpart of reese.i.ph. i made this blog so that i could express myself in a more convenient way.

but i will still update this one from time to time. 

i just wanted to have another outlet of my expressions. besides, it doesn’t matter what language you use right?

so for my readers (if there are any.hehehe!). you may also would like to check my other blog:

ryz.i.ph

;)

that would be all for now. 

hot and cold

i hate having colds or cough. i hate being sick like this. i wished i could just stay in my bed and sleep all day. 

runny nose. sore throat. muscle pains. headache. darn!

the weather for the past few days made this even worse. it’s freezing cold inside the office and when you go outside - it’s burning hell! and sometimes, it is really unpredictable. this is supposed to be the summer season but it feels like the balmy days and nights of december- january. 

and during this kind of weather, most people will really catch a cold or cough.  T_T (~sigh~)

sleeping

blog! wake up!

i barely check and update my blog nowadays. it’s not because i don’t have anything to post, because
there are lot of things goin on and so many emotions that i want to get out of my chest.
but i can’t squeeze some time to open this blog to check if there are any comments on my previous entries,
or messages on my shoutbox.  maybe there will be really none, who reads this thing anyway  (please raise your hand!)?
 
oh well… here are some of the things that i wanted to say:
1. I was so happy last Valentine’s Day because of what Rye has done. It was the first time that someone
have done those things for me. (He woke me up, at around 6 in the morning and told me to open our gate. To my
surprise, he came out from a cab and was holding a big Eeyore stuff toy and 3 Roses. He also sent a bouquet of Tulips to my office.)

I thought it would just be another day like any other. But he made it extra special for me. I really appreciate all the efforts he has done.

Two days after, we spend the weekend in Tagaytay. We did a little tour to some of the famous tourist hang outs. Simple yet fun and adventourous getaway that I dreamed of. Backpackers mode, as they call it. We just took a bus from Manila to Tagaytay and stayed in a cozy hotel. Then we took off to different stops walking or riding on a tricyclye or jeepneys.

2. Last week, my friends went to Boracay for the first summer trip of our group and unfortunately, Rye and I were not able to go with them for some unexpected reasons.  I felt really frustrated that time because those were the days that I wish I coud have some time off with all the things that’s going on with my work. And that is also the reason why I also insisted to spend the weekend in Tagaytay.

3. I believe that things are running smoothly with regards to our relationship (Rye and Me). Although
the first two months were really rocky. We’re learning to adjust and understand each other’s past and flaws.

4. I moved out from my previous apartment for some reasons, too. I am now staying with my Tita. And hopefully
we could move in a more spacious apartment soon.

5. I feel so pressured with regards to my work. I mean, I feel like i have done everything but it was not enough.
But I won’t give up because I believe I can do this. Anyway, I am learning and that is the benefit of what I’m currently doing. I love what I do, it’s just that it doesn’t feel right sometime especially when after an issue was resolved, another one would pop out. It’s nevending.

But I’m getting the hang of it. I just need some workaround to get this thing done. And so I could please everybody else.

6. Anyway, I can’t remember when but I think it was three to four weeks ago. There is this one colleague that came out of nowhere and just said something that really got into my nerves:

UNKNOWN: "Yan si Ma’am, Nag-iinternet lang yan eh…" 

ANOYMOUS: (look at my laptop) "Ay..ndi.. may ginagawa eh." 

 My eyebrow raised and I wanted to say, "duh?! do you mind?." But  I just retaliate in silence. I was really pissed off when he said that. Because for two reasons:

1. He is invading my privacy. and

2. I WAS HELL BUSY that time. He doesn’t even know how i’m having a hard time figuring out what to do on my problem. And he has the guts to tell me that. Even if it was meant or not, he doesn’t need to say that. Can I have a little respect or can he just be professional?

Finally! I made an entry..yey! Hehehe. 

P.S

Happy Birthday Ryan!  

breakaway

i really need a long break. i want to go out of town and unwind. 

this is the moment

today is the day…:D i’m quite excited and nervous at the same time. ryan will finally meet my parents and i already told them that he’s my boyfriend. 

hehehe..good luck to us! ^_^

happy 2008!

…hoping for a prosperous and peaceful year! cheers to all!

no more drama

^_____^ let's start this entry with a big smile. 

Yesterday, Rye told me that my previous blog entries sounded so depressive and emotional. actually, i realized it too when i back read on my posts.  Usually, when I write on my blog that is the time that I feel so down and depress. The things that I can't say to my friends, I try my best to write them down.

I am not really good in expressing my feelings, most of the times i am misunderstood. Anyway, another reason is because for the past years, i've been experiencing TOO MUCH drama in my life - and maybe that's why i have entries like "i wanna die…." and others posts that is very disturbing from another person's point of view.

And moving forward…

i hope to write more happy thoughts in the future.

two thousand and seven - looking back

another year is going to end - 2007 has been a roller coaster year for me. there are endings and new beginnings in my life.

i started the year in a new company with new responsibilities and also new people to deal with. 

i gained new friends from the office, parties and everywhere.

this year is the most number of out-of-town trips that i had, too. to name a few:

• laguna
• tagaytay
• batangas
• boracay
• subic 

i almost have done everything i wish for like partying, going to places, staying up late - the things i wish i could do but i was compelled not to during my so called martial law days with my ex.

finally, i got the chance to move out and live independently. but i will tell you, it is not that easy being away from your family. i miss them the most when i would go back during weekends. i missed my sisters laughs and giggles. when i went back home two week ago, my father cried when he saw me. i cried too - i really felt that he missed me.

but this is all i ever wanted since i started studying and working here in Makati. now, i would not worry of staying out late in the evening from work or from late night gimmicks. i'm starting to get a life - a normal 20's life. 

some goodbyes

i broke up with my long time boyfriend - norman.

i also had this special someone after i've been single, but after a few months the "thing" that we had didn't worked out. and then he suddenly became aloof. now we are just colleagues, sometimes i feel like we're strangers again. 

the saddest part of this year's goodbyes is when my ex's brother died - Mikey. though his death is one of the things that my ex boyfriend and i were constantly arguing about. Because for some stupid reasons, he's blaming me for his brother's death and for not understanding his situation. 

for all he know, i was there when it happened and i almost (if not as much) felt the pain. he's like a brother to me. and when he was still alive, i feel sorry and sad for him because of the way his older brothers would treat him. but now, i also feel happy for him now that his sufferings and pain were finally over. 

moving forward

one of the best gifts of this year is when i met Rye, i believe at the time that we became so close and at ease with each other - i was ready to be in a relationship again.  i found what i've been looking for.

Goodbye 2007!

Let's hope for the best for 2008!!! Cheers!

seventeen - what’s up reese?

Last month was a very busy month for me, suddenly project leads were born and some were revive after so many months of delay. My busy working days is I think that SOMEHOW a product of my very busy and colorful love life. I guess when I'm this happy and loved, everything seems to be falling into places. 

I am really thankful that I have someone like Ryan in my life right now. I don't want to elaborate more on how and why we became close because not everybody would understand. Just my closest friends and colleagues knew about it. I'm just so happy and contented with what's going on right now. 

Anyway, here are some updates about me: 

• Reborn

I am now living independently since I moved in an apartment here in Makati, almost 2 weeks ago. The first few days I find it really having a hard time going to sleep because of the new place and people that I'm with. Little by little I'm investing on some stuffs for my room. I washed and iron my own clothes, I try to cook once in a while, and I really make sure that my room is always tidy and presentable. Finally, after so many years I've been waiting to have a place on my own so that I can do things that i want - like hanging out with my friends more. Of course ALL in a responsible kind of way. I don't want to disappoint my parents and the people around me. 

• Renewed

I have new found friends from everywhere but what I'm very thankful for is the renewed camaraderie from my friends during my OJT days. We recently had a gathering that made us bond and I believe would bring us back all closer together. 

• Rebond

After almost a year, I finally got the chance to pamper my hair once more through the Rebonding treatment by Tony of Tony & Jackey Salon. I really love how Tony do his styling. After my treatment last year, I wasn't able to do the monthly maintenance and so after 8-10 months, my hair is really messed up, wavy and frizzy. I had two treatments prior to this Rebonding because I want to try if they can revive my hair. But I guess, I must stick to Tony & Jackey for my hair treatments because the other salons doesn't really do any good thing to my hair. I had this treatment with this other salon in Makati, they say it would strengthen my hair shaft blah blah.. but I just had split ends. I had Hair Spa and Henna Wax also with another salon, which I thought would make my hair straight once more but it only lasted for 3 days, after I washed my hair, the color stayed which is really cool but the waves went back which not so COOL.

As you can see, I am really vain with regards to my hair. Hehehe. And I believe every girl should do because it's really our crowning glory. Believe me.

happy feeling

I have this happy feeling once again. Butterflies in my stomach. The constant smile I can't seem to get-off my face. There are so many things I want to say here, but I don't how to start. There quite a few reasons why I feel so good for the past 2 days. Things I am very grateful for. It's been a while since I felt so good about everything - my family, friends, work and every thing else. 

It's like everything is falling into places. God must have sent me an angel.